Hello everyone! It’s been a hectic few weeks of trying to get my brain meds to comply. Whew! S/o to my minefield mind for finally behaving. At least long enough for me to publish this blog.
My name is Ida-Sharon CheChe Ngollo. I’m also called Sharida or Awuor Super. I’m in my early twenties, weighing in at a healthy 60kgs and standing tall at about 5″2. I have 5 siblings, one nephew (my amazing sidekick) and the cutest gosh darn dog you will ever meet! My dad is my lifeline and my mom is dynamite, a bundle of stardust. My siblings are the reason I don’t fret.
I’m bipolar. Scratch that. I have Bipolar Disorder. Bipolar II Disorder to be specific. But I cannot be SHAMED; I wear my Bipolar Disorder like a CROWN. I’m mildly asocial and a purveyor of resilience. A firm believer in the notion that everything will be alright in the end, and if it’s not alright, it’s not the end. Born into strength, I’m endowed with the spirit of the concrete rose: beautiful and delicate yet full of grit and tenacity that strikes more firm than its thorns. I got a double-barrelled name but the rest of my siblings all have names that begin with the letter ‘B.’ I’m not saying I’m a rarity or an antique or that I stand out but hey.
I experience life through emotions. I feel colours, see love, smell achievement and hear a smile. I find bits and pieces of who I am in unexpected places. I fear having my voice muffled; my instinctual nature shunned. I value my freedom and the interpretation of who I am. I’m sensitive and creative. I’m a music lover; I wake up and go to bed with music. I’m intuitive and compassionate. I’m that girl dancing to the beat of her own voice. I’m all that is of this world both seen and hidden. I have unintentionally broken hearts and had my heart broken intentionally… Love is life’s biggest contradiction. I’m passionate and imperfect. I’m a playful spirit with an old soul. I find comfort in independence as much as I do in a riveting read.
I love being a woman (we are the world’s most passionate / compassionate nurturers). I love my faith; I love who I am and who I will be. I refuse to apologize for who I am. Apologies are just words and words are transient. I’m open minded and willing to try just about anything. I believe life is my textbook and day by day I will breathe in a page and be taught.
I’m just living my dash.
A few of my favourite things / people :
- Smiles that heal the world.
- Colour blue.
- Tupac Shakur and The Outlawz. (They are my spirit animals. Everything they do resonates with me on a personal level).
- Beards that connect.